Have you ever faced the death of a hope? Do you know anyone who has? How did they deal with it?
Hope:
1. to cherish a desire with anticipation
2. to expect with confidence: trust
Have you every hoped for something with all your heart soul and being? Have you ever lost all hope of a particular thing? I have.
For many years I had hoped to have a child only to find that it was not God's plan for me at that time or place. It was like the death of a person who never existed. I longed to have a child with all my heart. I prayed. I cried. I prayed more and cried more. I experienced all of the friends and acquaintances having child after child. I had people rub babies feet on me and say you need one too. I have had people tell me that I did not drink the same or the right water. I have had other women who were mom's go on and on about not having a child of the sex of their choice and how to make sure they had a boy or girl. All the things that they tried to have a girl or have a boy. All the while I was longing for a child of my own. The hurt in my heart was so very real and yet not many people cared or understood.
I found that this journey strengthened my life. I did not have the answers. I did not get the answers that I prayed for. My life did not go as I had planned. My life did not go the way that I thought God would have planned it either. But ONE THING THAT I DID KNOW AND STILL KNOW is that GOD IS WITH ME EVEN WHEN I DID NOT UNDERSTAND OR DO NOT UNDERSTAND.
I never thought that I would ever be married again. I never thought that I would be loved again. Old, fat and infertile. God had other plans.
God had a plan for Jenna's life. She was fearfully and wonderfully made. God had a plan for her birth mother and birth father and still does. Her birth mother choose life. God choose her to be part of our family.
I do not know what His answer is for you or your family or your situation but I DO KNOW THAT HE WILL BE WITH YOU REGARDLESS OF HOW YOU FEEL OR IF YOU UNDERSTAND.
Praise God that He loves us each and everyone.
Here is a link for those who struggle with infertility.
1. to cherish a desire with anticipation
2. to expect with confidence: trust
Have you every hoped for something with all your heart soul and being? Have you ever lost all hope of a particular thing? I have.
For many years I had hoped to have a child only to find that it was not God's plan for me at that time or place. It was like the death of a person who never existed. I longed to have a child with all my heart. I prayed. I cried. I prayed more and cried more. I experienced all of the friends and acquaintances having child after child. I had people rub babies feet on me and say you need one too. I have had people tell me that I did not drink the same or the right water. I have had other women who were mom's go on and on about not having a child of the sex of their choice and how to make sure they had a boy or girl. All the things that they tried to have a girl or have a boy. All the while I was longing for a child of my own. The hurt in my heart was so very real and yet not many people cared or understood.
I found that this journey strengthened my life. I did not have the answers. I did not get the answers that I prayed for. My life did not go as I had planned. My life did not go the way that I thought God would have planned it either. But ONE THING THAT I DID KNOW AND STILL KNOW is that GOD IS WITH ME EVEN WHEN I DID NOT UNDERSTAND OR DO NOT UNDERSTAND.
I never thought that I would ever be married again. I never thought that I would be loved again. Old, fat and infertile. God had other plans.
God had a plan for Jenna's life. She was fearfully and wonderfully made. God had a plan for her birth mother and birth father and still does. Her birth mother choose life. God choose her to be part of our family.
I do not know what His answer is for you or your family or your situation but I DO KNOW THAT HE WILL BE WITH YOU REGARDLESS OF HOW YOU FEEL OR IF YOU UNDERSTAND.
Praise God that He loves us each and everyone.
Here is a link for those who struggle with infertility.
Stepping Stones Infertility Resources
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